pErSoNaLiTiEs

sorry for leaving this blog for too fkn long...im back=)

2009-09-22T18:04:00.004+10:00

finally settled and now i'm back with blogging, guess it's just the starting of my boring life.
Update for some friends who are still with me, I will be uploading a lot of picture thanks to my latest toy- DSLR. =)
For the moment, here is some of the latest pic.

is random

2007-11-14T22:05:00.000+11:00

life has been really in deep mess recently..but good o nick manage to overcome it.
with heaps of assignment coming up and all the time that need to be reserved for other stuff..
man..I'm gonna be in deep shit..is time for some Time Management...lol
alright..need to get back to my assignment..oh ya..adam..stop sending me lame jokes..^_^

theory or practical

2007-10-31T01:37:00.000+11:00

There are times when we are timid and shy about expressing the love we feel.
For fear of embarrassing the other person, or yourselves, we hesitate to say the actual words "I love you."
So we try to communicate the idea in other words. We say 'take care' or 'don't drive too fast' or 'be good.'
But really, these are just other ways of saying 'I love you,' 'you are important to me,' 'I care what happens to you,' 'I don't want you to get hurt.'

We are sometimes very strange people. The only thing we want to say, and the one thing that we should say, is the one thing we don't say. And yet, because the feeling is so real, and the need to say it is so strong, we are driven to use other words and signs to say what we really mean.

And many times the meaning never gets communicated at all and the other person is left feeling unloved and unwanted. Therefore, we have to LISTEN FOR LOVE in the words that people are saying to us.
Sometimes the explicit words are necessary, but more often, the manner of saying things is even more important.
A joyous insult carries more affection and love within the sentiments which are expressed insincerely. An impulsive hug says I LOVE YOU even though the words might be saying very different. Any expression of a person's concern for another says I love you.

Sometimes the expression is clumsy, sometimes even cruel. Sometimes we must look and listen very intently for the love that contains. But it is often there, beneath the surface. A mother may nag her son constantly about his grades or cleaning his room. The son may hear only the nagging, but if he listens carefully, he will hear the love underneath the nagging. His mother wants him to do well, to be successful. Her concern and love for her son unfortunately emerge in her nagging.
But it is love all the same. A daughter comes home late, way past her curfew, and her father confronts her with angry words. The daughter may hear only the anger, but if she listens carefully , she will hear the love under the anger. "I was worried about you," the father is saying. 'Because I care about you and I love you. You are important to me.

We say I love you in many ways - with birthday gifts, and little notes, with smiles and sometimes with tears. Sometimes we show our love by just keeping quiet and not saying a word, at other times by speaking out, even brusquely. We show our love sometimes by impulsiveness.
Many times we have to show our love by forgiving someone who has not listened to the love we have tried to express. The problem is listening for love is that we don't always understand the language of love which the other person is using. A girl may use tears or emotions to say what she wants to say, and her boyfriend may not understand her because he expects her to be talking his language.

Thus, we have to force ourselves to really listen for love. The problem with our world is that people rarely listen to each other. They hear the words, but they don't listen to the actions that accompany the words or the expression on the face.
Or people listen only for rejection or misunderstanding. They do not see the love that is there just beneath the surface, even if the words are angry. We have to listen for love in those around us. If we listen intently we will discover that we are a lot more loved than we realize. List en for love and we will find that the world is a very loving place after all:

LOVE is a happy thing. It makes us laugh. It makes us sing. It makes us sad. It makes us cry. It makes us seek the reason why. It makes us take. It makes us give. Above all else, it makes us LIVE. It is not the presence or absence of people that makes the difference because a person need not be lonely even if he is alone. Sometimes it is good to be alone. But that does not make us lonely. It is not a matter of being present WITH someone. It is a matter of being present to someone.

dreams

2007-10-25T18:42:00.000+10:00

I've dreamed many dreams that never came true.
I've seen them vanish at dawn.
But I've realized enough of my dreams thank the God,
To make me want to dream on.

I've prayed many prayers when no answer came,
Though I've waited patient and long,
But answers have come to enough of my prayers
To make me keep praying on.

I've trusted many a friend that failed,
And left me to weep alone,
But I've found enough of my friends that are really true,
That will make me keep trusting on.

I've sown many seeds that have fallen by the way,
For the birds to feed upon,
But I've held enough golden sheaves in my hand,
To make me keep sowing on.

I've drunk from the cup of disappointment and pain
I've gone many days without song,
But I've sipped enough nectar from the Roses of Life
To make me keep living on!

And now i'm sick of waiting for you to say
where i can never say a single words,
even if i did say something

it will never take affect on whatever to your world.

apologize

2007-10-25T18:08:00.000+10:00

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearing what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say that...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothing new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

melbourne city's mafia

2007-10-21T05:45:00.000+10:00

holidays holidays and holidays....it's coming to the end..and soon..nick is going back to school again.
sigh!!!
Just to update all the loyal subscribers of pErSoNaLiTiEs,
this is what mai was doing during the holidays.camwhor, camwhor, and..guess what??still camwhor..lol

day:monday
Location: city(behind Vanessa's house)
weather:freaking hot(but jus dun understand why they still say it "oh!!tht's is cool!"

today, nick is so free and have nothing to do. So, after packing up all the gears..and here i go..joining all the "Big Brother of Melbourne city"..
guess what do we need to do?
basically, stalking;hunting; camwhor; and back to base.
hehe=p...and first, before the session starts( approx. 1600), nick and cousin need to report in to one of the coffee house for briefing..and so sorry..there were no pictures allowed since it is P&C
all fighters will actually sit down and talk about their wives and family(lol^_^),coffee and ciggy..
after that, red alert button will be press and everyone will need to get ready with their gears..

gearing up

ok..everything is ready..and here we go for the big catch..

i'm wondering..when will the MPSJ or MPPj starts using this type of technologies.
hey tambi, they definitely get well paid for this, AUD200 per vehicle.no jokes fella, and all the drivers are actually well educated(but speaks in a rough way LOL)..some even has a degree..Oops, why am i revealing my country's top secret!!!

nick wonder what will he be if he fail this semester again?
garbage collector?T_T

all the downpours come to an end and is time to hap^_^

2007-10-21T05:39:00.001+10:00

can u see the rainbow??took this at glen waverly with Mr. Adam with me walking to max Brenner's "Milo-Kosong"..it was absolutely cool...

are you sure??

2007-10-12T05:28:00.000+10:00

Your Kissing Grade: A-

You are truly an amazing kisser. Your kisses are extraordinarily mind blowing.
Whether you're naturally a good kisser or not, you've taken the time learn how to be the best kisser possible.
Anyone would be lucky to get a kiss from you!

How Do Your Kisses Rate?

Words4eu

2007-10-08T19:23:00.000+10:00

prada babe:
before i really knew u,
before i really knew me;
i couldn't believe in someone that didn't believe in me,
but i believe in u, and i always belived.
shh...dun say a word,
as i will bring u to my world;
missing u this time, this moment, this second,
for everything that you taught me how to be a man;
two more weeks and i will see u again,
back to the routine but with more happiness to be gain.

mai new car

2007-10-07T15:42:00.000+10:00

for all buddies from team fall3n and pals in zerotohundred,

Nick has just bought himself a lude..hehe..ya lude..but nick is broke now...
back on the road driving by my own..is like so in control, and nick feels that he is back.
nick miss all the time that i have had with fall3n member...those mamak time where we all drive and park next to the mamak..those insane driving..those convoying to klang for seafood..nick jus miss it.Mr. jack, father june heng, OKW , superman, evil twin brother ah chow, chien wei, everyone..

but life still needs to move on..i might be going for the team OZ rules later, when all pals are ready. hopefully this dream will come true.

so..this is mai lude..everyone..wahaha..

dun scold me if this photo spoil the post..because this housemate of my is so vain..that she actually force me to take her photo with mai car..ish

what i need is a cool sets of bodykit, sound system, air filter, afc, and a 2.5'' piping..and..haha..

mai missing V

2007-10-07T15:32:00.000+10:00

i should say that i was missing V few days after u leaved..but now,wahahaha.. i miss u no more...

why? because, i know that you are always here with mai..hehe=p
i just feel your appearance here.
i never wash my jumper..why?
because can still smell the fragrance there..ehehe...

ok..for all of those who are guessing around what does
"missing in between T and V is"

the alphabet between T and V is U..so is missing U..hehe

sorry for "berkarat-ing" my blog page

2007-10-07T15:31:00.000+10:00

ok..yes i'm back...after all the exam stress..i'm back...

Mumsu ball

2007-09-25T17:47:00.001+10:00

due to the coming final examination,this page is still under construction..sorry for any inconvenience cause

^_^

nothing stops the music

2007-09-18T06:37:00.001+10:00

these was recorded few days ago:

nick was actually having a bad throat on that day..cause by the heavy smoking habit..
yaya..nick will quit it ASAP..no worries..
after getting a MV from a close friend from TAIWAN..nick eventually got so addicted to it and start grabbing the guitar and looking for it's chords and tabs...and **********
here you have a good combination of whistle and guitar..
(a secret i cannot tell)..DIY

virtual

2007-09-15T21:01:00.000+10:00

"All the world's a stage,
and all the men and women merely players"

awakening i'm..after a whole tiring week..physically, mentally, virtually
as i was reading a blog about september 11..my finger can't stop typing and my mind can't stop thinking over and over again..and this is the masterpiece i've done..

Just finish watching the news on Seven

That disaster, once again

A mother holding her son’s picture

Hoping that he will come back

I can’t stand the display on the television set,

And the tears from my eyes are falling from my face

Love love, has been forgotten by everybody

No one will believe, will believe in love

Love love, there’s no meaning in this pity world

I don’t wanna stay in this type of city

Yeah

Many little pops ups in the news daily

Entertainment and currency

All the kids are playing with hide and seek,

Without love, nobody believe

I am very angry

I just can cry and let it be

Innocent people, how many they need to leave

Dear god, show me some mercy on all those little kids

Don’t pretend that, pretend that you’ve never see

Love love, tell me how to bring back all the peace

Because I don’t wanna leave this horrible city

I have no way to leave it

No no

Not this horrible city

Because it’s my home, my country

Where I’d stayed since I was kid

Oh..

Just get the latest news I heard from the radio,

This bad dream will not quit

Stay together to show them our unity

No racism and no boundaries

Together we fight the evil that it’s within.

random

2007-09-13T19:59:00.000+10:00

tired, exhausted

2007-09-11T03:31:00.000+10:00

yes..at last..i finished both of the hardest assignment and now finally i can have some rest.
hopefully i will have some outing this weekend so that i can do more camwhor and sutff..
and can update my pic of the month soon..^_^
gd night..hugging the pillow monster to bed..hehe=p

so called love formula.^_^

2007-09-09T00:36:00.000+10:00

they once said

(the duration of time for ur relationship)/2= the amount of time it will be needed for u to let go of it.

so..if you are using more than this..you are chaos..hehe... ^_^

you are my inspiration

2007-09-07T18:43:00.000+10:00

one thing for sure..smoker cant sing well...T_T

funny stories

2007-09-05T01:04:00.000+10:00

ok..here goes my story

was actually having some e-gathering(conference in msn) and all my childhood friends was there gossiping around about something that happened to one of our underground teammate..she was actually get in relationship with a malay guy..and everybody was so stunned..and what they said was "what a waste"..and as i were browsing through my friendster page..i saw one of my not so close friend..get hooked with a malay girl recently..and i show them to the site...and you know what happened??..they said " he got balls",...lol...alright..OZ frens..this is not about stereo typing..but in our place where we were raised..things do happened like this all the time..haha...can u believe that there were also few malay guys in the conversation with us??and what they said was.."chinese girl are good to be gf..but not as life-time companion.."lol..as i was reading this...gosh..

i think malaysia government and the society need to work hard collaboratively in order to make these barriers invisible...malaysian dude..u guys know what i'm emphasizing right?

okie..back to work...

SmEll iT

2007-09-03T01:58:00.000+10:00

i know something is wrong...
but do i have the guts to face it???do i??

composing mode

2007-09-02T19:11:00.000+10:00

2007-09-02T01:42:00.000+10:00

shouldn't have spray dkny in my room..now i feel emo...
feel like dripping some tears out.........................................
cant sleep................................................................................
shit...........................................................................................

2007-08-28T19:58:00.000+10:00

When u smile
My life becomes a ray of light
Sing me a lullaby
To sleep at midnight

I’ll be hypnotized
when looked into your eyes
Turn off the room light
Let's Spend the night

Chorus
Take me to far away
Away to your secret place
Take my tears my fears
Take all my pain for which I'll repay
Someday with a kiss and say
Can't believe that I’m in love
In love again

When the stars don’t shine
And when the birds don’t fly
And when the flowers cry
And when the rain runs dry
When the violet's red and when the rose turn blue
Baby I’ll still be in love with u

Chorus X2

...

2007-08-28T18:00:00.001+10:00

one emo buddy..

i will be the husky that will guard the door for as long as u need me to be

V

2007-08-28T09:30:00.001+10:00

We find greatest joy, not in getting, but in expressing what we are... Men do not really live for honors or for pay; their gladness is not the taking and holding, but in doing, the striving, the building, the living. It is a higher joy to teach than to be taught. It is good to get justice, but better to do it; fun to have things but more to make them. The happy man is he who lives the life of love, not for the honors it may bring, but for the life itself.

terminology

2007-08-28T03:56:00.000+10:00

Drifting is a form of cornering which uses controlled slipping of the tires to give a more showy and sometimes faster turn speeds. With grip driving, the key is to go slow to fast around the corner whereas with drifting, you try to maintain a constant speed around the corner and come out of it faster. These are some types of drifting which are possible with a MiniZ (there is no precise way to do each, but this provides you with a guide on how to perform your own drifts):

Power Over - When entering a corner, use full throttle to produce heavy oversteer through the turn

Faint Drift - Steer the car towards the outside of a turn and then use steering traction to throw the head of the car into the inside of the turn

Swaying Drift - A slow side-to-side faint like drift where the rear end sways back and forth down a straight

Kansei Drift - When at racing speeds and entering a high speed corner, quickly take your finger off the gas to initiate a mild oversteer and then balance the drift through steering and reapplied gas

Jump Drift - Allow the inside rear tire to bounce over the apex of the curb such that it loses traction, resulting in oversteer

Long Side Drift - Use reverse and steering to put the car side ways at a high angle (almost totally sideways) and hold this when entering the corner.

Last but not lease.. inertia drifting..tht means before ur car heads into the corner..u let ur car to turn to the opposite direction..and then let it swift back to the correct direction..and make an oversteer..is really hard for me to write it out here..it's even harder for me to do it on the track..but er...lol..inspiration...

i want a moon pie^_^

2007-08-28T03:09:00.001+10:00

sPrInG iS HeRe!!!!

wonder why Nick is still here this late??
nah..i didn't stay awake till now..
i fall asleep after the full dinner that i'd cooked--pasta
and got to wake up this early because i remember there is a small assignment needed to be hand in in few hours time..so pop up and eventually..i'm blogging again..hehe

ok..last weekend was actually a tiring one..when on friday night, Nick went to conrad's 21st party in flinders and Nick actually got so drunk..luckily tzong and michael was there..haha..
and on saturday, Joseph throwed a house party so as a so called "Malaysian"..i need to give some support..haha..what a lame joke..and i didnt even put my hand on the beer..can't afford to put my health in danger again...we actually chit chat and have some "Winning eleven" gaming session till late..and reached home around 2 in the morning..
Later in the morning, Nick's cousin rang and bring Nick to have brunch at sofia and head to Caribbean market after that..
culture barrier??nah..
Carribean market was so so fun when we shopped around and have a little picnic and little baby ryan has had most of the fun there..he even picked up a girl..haha..good gosh, my baby ryan...i should just say that you are so potential..we chilled out on the grass and watched those big boys playing with their radio control Boat..that can actually chase a seagull during take off..man..that's what attracted Nick again..speeeeeeed...It was just such a nice day man...

And the week started off with an interesting monday...i wouldn't say it's a bad monday or i hate monday..but i would rather called it a challenging monday..life has never been so interesting without Yang around..
guess that's all i should write for now..got to get started with my assignment...ciao everyone..

monash clayton students..pls read this

2007-08-24T09:25:00.001+10:00

OMG..tinglih..u slim down..haha

to all monash clayton student..have a look at what they have in monash malaysia..i think we will need to do alot in order to catch up..

thx tom for the photo..tinglih n jez..such a nice post u have there..jason aka tamiya83 for the info..frens from zerotohundred.com..esspecially mr remus..Links co. mr kee...gt racing...and all the people that has make this dream come true...thks so much...sorry if i did left out someone in the list..thx to all

for more photo and info..pls proceed to www.zerotohundred.com

2007-08-24T08:47:00.000+10:00

it's been a while since i last update my blog..but..here i'm now..back again
first, i would like to say "grazie mille" to mr Nick Acquarola for paying a visit to my blog..

for your information, Mr Nick here is adam's dad..which shares the same name as me..nick..haha..what a co-incidence, he was searching for adam's name in the internet and he found me...Guess i should brush up my english as soon as possible since i'm posting a blog that gonna be read by people from different culture and race..

erm..i think i should put a shout here first, " to all friends that are from different culture, sorry if my blog is kinda offending towards some of the culture..because i can't promise that i will have a very environment friendly site..as i'm not posting a site for commercial wise or any other thing more than that..if i really did make u mad or feel bad..pls..go to the fridge and take a bottle of beer and some nachos..chilllllll..=p"

hey adam, "cosa stai facendo?"..i just wake up and jus cooked myself a pasta for breakfast..and hell yea..fresh italian coffee which i always need to wake me up..

think that's more than enough to write for now..need to post some pic..pic that says a thousand words...here they are

the cheeky boys..haha..love u daniel..
lol..this guy has been putting on alot..
can u believe that i actually took this photo??who said a good photo must be taken behind the sunlight..haha=p

for the particular person who is looking for a photographic partner..this is my piece of work tht i wish it could impress u..hehe=p, yang.....

to the resuce...

2007-08-20T02:55:00.000+10:00

LOL..i received a post card from someone few days ago..she was actually one of my friend who used to have relationship probleam la..ya..is probleam..not spelling mistake..keke..and i used to talked to her quite alot for some times..

and in her post card..she actually call me Superman..haha
the post card goes like that..
dear superman,
it's been a while since we really have a good chat.Hope ur doing fine there. hv a good news for u..i'm getting engaged soon..and thx to u..u save everything..u know, they don't call u superman for no reason..you're still doing the same old thing everything, saving almost everything..but i wonder where is ur kryptonite..(i was laughing when reading this)..and bla bla(P & C la)

anyway..jus wanna let u know..i found the kryptonite..and i just wonder if one day i gone crazy..will there still anyone remembers this superman??haha..end of story la..i dun wanna keep on KEMBANGING..(for those local aussie that doesnt understand this..sumone like adam acquarola..KEMBANG--inflated with air..getting bigger and floating in the air)..haha

alryte..time for some update on pic..
i hired a cook..and this is what she cooked..stewed chicken..yummylicious

the HAPPY meal for the kid..too bad no free toys..haha
the cook..YANG..haha..=p
the concrete forest..
a mobile cigarette vendor..haha..B.A.T frens..sorry for not putting a KENT there la..but the spirit is still there..dun worry^_^

sorry for the time being..i dun have any photo of myself..but will keep updating as soon as possible..so stay tune for more fun^_^

finding comfort in pain

2007-08-16T06:10:00.000+10:00

as you're reading this, i'm here always
can't used to it,
can't used to stop seeing you before bed
j'ai besoin de vous, jai besoin de vous

i rather staying awake all night
i rather sleeping late,
just to make sure you're living great
i have try to bring peace
i have seen pain
resting on the shoulders of your name
do u see the truth through all their lies
do u see the world through troubled eyes?
and if you want to talk about it anymore,
lie here on the floor and cry on my shoulder
i do care.

you and i haven't been through many things
but i'll hold on to your heart
i wouldn't cry for anything
but don't go tearing your life apart.

i have seen fear, i have seen faith,
seen the look of anger on your face.
and if you wanna talk about it anymore,
come to the living room,
and cry on my shoulder again,
cry on my shoulder, i will never disappear.

sorry

2007-08-12T09:04:00.000+10:00

Anyone that has been offended by nicholas or worried about nicholas..
sorry Sorry sorry
..was really lost those day..and was too stressed over assignmentSSSsss
anyway, I'm back and i will hope to keep this long enough to bring back the laughter

inspiring

2007-08-12T02:15:00.000+10:00

NICK...stop BLOGGING..
go do ur assignment!!!

started of with a no-Nooo day

2007-08-11T17:58:00.000+10:00

i woke up early this morning...ya..is about 10 in the morning. I know it wasn't that early but for "god of sleep" like me..this is like really early for me.

i wake up early because i need to prepare a big surprise..hehe..a real big one..since it's still a surprise..i think i shouldn't talk more about it here. erm..it's kind of cancel later in the morning, as someone can't really make it. so i just need to postpone this..too bad.
As things can be really better these few days..i choose to have a good nap and wake up later to do on other stuff..

and when i wake up..i felt very very hungry..so packed up and then hit the road..As i was walking to the a store under the miserable rain..why miserable?? my day was already not that "good" for the day, and once i walked out the rain starts to fall on my face. And at this moment, i recall a phrase that a very nice person told me before, " i like walking under the rain, because no one will know that i'm crying when i'm crying under the rain." i was really been took away by those words.

suddenly, i saw a lady with her car broke down on the road..along princess highwayh. as i need to walk passed her, i stopped and asked her whether she needs any help. i took one of the torchlight from her car, and check on the front bay after she told me what happened just now.after that, i helped her to push the car to the roadside.me strong???nah..she is driving a mazda 323 hatchback..and is an old school one..so it wont cause me much strength to push it.

and after checking on the car and the petrol level..and hey..i know what's happening..spark plug man..this happened to me before....fortunately she has a tool kit behind her car..and i manage to pull out all the plug and wipe it for her..of course this is just for temporally. After cleaning them, and vrooooomm..the car start moving again. She actually wanted to buy me a coffee to thanks me but erm..i told her she should just go to the mechanic ASAP, as this will only make her car runs probably a few kilometers more. So she just give me a warm hug with tears and she left..i would say sorry to her now, as i cant really spend time on the coffee as i wasnt that in mood for a conversation today.

hey i have a bad day, so what..i manage to lighten up other's day man..haha..
and V..don't feel bad ok..i'm not blaming you or anything. what is important now is you need to feel more better and recover real soon..is not that bad to stay in aussie..i can tell you this as i've been working as a "part-time NOMAD" i can tell you..everyplace is the same..the things that differ is how you take those stuff..i've had life worse than this when i'm in malaysia even other country..but see..things just makes me learn..i bet i wont be writing these words out in my blog if i never faced things like these before..^_^

to my f**king housemates

2007-08-10T00:39:00.000+10:00

THANKS for being so "caring"...
have you ever heard about a guy that wanted to use the pot
but the pot was used by the owner and the owner wanted to wash it later..
and this f**Ked up housemate of mine actually wash the pot..use it and then jus leave it there at the basin..saying that is because when he wanted to use the pot it wasnt cleaned??
and this is not just once..he is using this excuse everytime..wtf!!!

i dont know about others..but i used to be a "nomad" since i was young..and i have been staying with other people all the time..and this is just my worst time staying with two asshole that crumble more than my mum..

if you're looking for housemate with the following criteria..pls leave me a message, and i'll be more than happy to let you have my room:
1. He scheduled up a timetable for the usage of the washing machine because he wanna save up money by cutting down the washing period from everyone.
2. He just let you to on the heater 1hr per day--same excuse..he wanna pay less for the electricity bill
3. He breaks the washing machine door and when the landlord come and ask for the one who are responsible for it to pay it..he tells the landlord everyone should pay.

Housemate B:
1. when u are doing aromatherapy, he says you make the whole house smells like shit..cow dunk..
2. he never show any contribution to the house..and washing a single dish to him is like something very honor..that he needs acknowledgment from everyone that he has washed the dishes.
3. he likes to go to your room to used the bathroom you have in your room..because his own bathroom is cooler--tht's what he said

what's the worse..they don't have any connection with the landlord and they don't really know how to communicate..
yaya..victoria institute boys..have so much of knowledge but talk like a barbarian..that's why i always say..higher education is a failure to those that doesnt know how to apply it in real life..

Boys..my words to you:
"be a man, u might get married one day..try tolerating..respect others..and also the girls in the house..not all ladies are willing to do ur housework for you..not even guy will do=p"

okay okay..enough of shouting here..i need to stop procrastinating..back to my work..haha
chill nick...chilllll....

updated photo

2007-08-09T20:47:00.000+10:00

story number 1:
bus driver:g'day mate
me : g'day..i need a zone 1 all day ticket..m going to the city..
bus driver: yea..is a nice day to go to the city
me: yea..sunny day and not too windy
bus driver: any concession fare for ya?
me: nah, is alright..
bus driver: u sure??
me: huh..(rubbing my head)..hell i'm sure mate..
bus driver: okay..hehe..

wondering why they don't have Chinese chess in the city..haha

let me intro to you guys..my personal camera-"lady"..haha..^_^

in state library..procrastinating again with my assignment..hehe

this piece of cake reminds me of the choco fudge that i had at Inspiration Cafe

my personal camera-"lady" took this when i was trying to shoot the cake..

2007-08-09T05:23:00.000+10:00

Don't Tell Me

2007-08-09T04:27:00.000+10:00

Thursday..04 august 2007..429am

Wonder why i'm still awake? i've tried to get more sleep as my face looks more and more pale as time passes. Just finishing jamming on my guitar(or should i say adam acquarola's...lol)with my headsets on.What??? Is freakin early in the morning, and everyone is sleeping.So i have no choice.

Sigh Sigh and Sigh. Three more assignments needed to be hand in like in less than a week, and still i'm procrastinating all the shit. And believe me, this is hell not cool. I don't wanna screw my diploma up by procrastinating. This is like my 2nd time with diploma, NICK..u done it once and i know you can make it happen again.

i was trying to keep V up by time to time. Looking her getting worse and worse day by day is like i'm standing at the cliff and looking at a girl standing alone at the bottom...shivering.. and i cant do a single thing..i've try so best to pull her up..try to cheer her up..but this ain't working..
dear V,"Is a DAMN COLD night...and is very dark..but don't worry..I'm with U..just hold on my hand and we will get through this..i will bring you to somewhere new." You say I'm a hero, but what does it means to be a hero where there's no one there willing to accept your helps??Hero becomes Zero. She is lost inside..lost inside..i wish i could just be a candle that lights her through her path. I've been through that before like few years ago and i just hope that i can dry up whatever tears that are falling inside and healing all the pain that i can find.

i've just give Jojo a call. Ya..UK..but i got no choice. At the moment i still can't find a subsidiary or is just that i don't want. We had a great conversation and she seems to be earning a lot at UK.
Although i didn't really sound out my problem and was pretending i was laughing all the time, but is still like the old days where i get inspiration out of her words. She is like my recharger, but this recharger ain't what you guys thinking out there. She is not my gf, nor my lover, not even my family. Guess this is why it used to make me miserable. She were everything that i wanted, but i've lost it. Just thank God we are still in contact, and seeing that she is having a good life there is a really happy ending..

this poem i hope whoever you are when you are reading this understand what i wanted you to know..you might be nothing to this world, might be something to someone, but you are everything to me.

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for, but to care about.
To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny, but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.

the devil

2007-08-06T17:00:00.000+10:00

this is my first post..yes..

You are The Devil

Materiality. Material Force. Material temptation; sometimes obsession

The Devil is often a great card for business success; hard work and ambition.

Perhaps the most misunderstood of all the major arcana, the Devil is not really "Satan" at all, but Pan the half-goat nature god and/or Dionysius. These are gods of pleasure and abandon, of wild behavior and unbridled desires. This is a card about ambitions; it is also synonymous with temptation and addiction. On the flip side, however, the card can be a warning to someone who is too restrained, someone who never allows themselves to get passionate or messy or wild - or ambitious. This, too, is a form of enslavement. As a person, the Devil can stand for a man of money or erotic power, aggressive, controlling, or just persuasive. This is not to say a bad man, but certainly a powerful man who is hard to resist. The important thing is to remember that any chain is freely worn. In most cases, you are enslaved only because you allow it.

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